When Words Fail, Music Speaks

Author's Note: I stole that awesome title from little Miss Julie - thanks for sharing!

I feel like the fact that the first song on my blog could be classified as part of the "country" genre needs a bit of explanation (& it will probably last...hmm... three days). So here's the explanation:

I like music. A lot. & I'm all about the lyrics (please see every other post on this blog even remotely related to music for more evidence). Also, I like taylor swift kind of a lot. shhhhh - don't tell. This particular song is awesomely fitting in my life right now, in a sort of ironic happy ending way. If that sounds vague, it's supposed to be - I'm learning that a little ambiguity isn't such a bad thing after all.

So, for all of you out there (*ahem* Jason H. - you know who you are) who listen to this blog more than you read it, give me a shout out opinion on the new country-ish additions & let me know what you want to hear more of. If the lyrics are good, I just might give it a spin.

& now I've got to run, baby, run & finish my D&C assignment. You don't understand how helpless[ly distracted] I get.

Author's other note: I dunno what's up with the font size on this - it's being stubborn.

How I Love Lyrics

I am a lyrics freak. If you don't know this by now, this is probably your first time reading my blog & you've probably only met me once or passed me on the street.

Since I already have status ADD on facebook, I thought I would post a list of some of the best lyrics that have seemed particularly applicable to my life of late. If you can name all the artists, I'll...um...give you a cookie.

*Now's the right time for a good song - get something to say what I can't*

*But lately the weather has been so bipolar & consequently so have I*

*I'm standing on the edge of everything I've never been before*

*Turn my head with talk of summertime* (ha ha)

*The book of love has music in it, in fact that's where music comes from. Some of it is transcendental, some of it's just really dumb. But I love it when you sing to me. & you can sing me anything.*

*When life is in discord, praise ye the Lord*

*Quisiera darte mundo entero, la luna, el cielo, el sol, el mar. Regalarte las estrellas en una caja de cristal. Llevarte al espacio sideral y volar como hace superman* :)

*I'm just a little bit caught in the middle, life is a maze & love is a riddle. Oh, I'm just a little girl lost in the moment, I'm so scared, but I don't show it.*

*I didn't want any promises, just your undivided honesty*

*Sometimes we forget what we got, who we are & who we are not. I think we've got a chance to make it right, keep loose, keep it tight.*

Well, I think that's about enough of that. :D

Cutlery in the Road

Sometimes we come to a fork in the road. Other times we don't realize that something significant has changed until we look back and see the new direction our lives have taken. Sometimes the decisions we think are huge don't actually make that much difference. And sometimes a lot of forks seem to present themselves at once.

Today is one of those days.

I feel like I've got a whole pile of cutlery in my road right now. This isn't necessarily a bad thing...just a lot of decisions to be made - big, small, school, life, love, family, serious, and silly. Wa-bam. I was looking for a bit of change, a few new opportunities, a new direction - a new fork. I got the whole utensil drawer. And a can opener.

Today is decision day. My daddy has an appointment with his doctor this afternoon to find out what sort of cancer monster we're dealing with in Round 3. If it's the same lymphoma that he's had in the past, he'll probably start an amazing new type of chemo, the same type of treatment he did in Round 2, today or tomorrow. It won't be fun, but it will be better than our other option. If the cancer has morphed into a more aggressive lymphoma, then he'll yet again experience the joy of CHOP chemo. And when I say joy...well, let's just say I'm being a bit sarcastic.

Knives, forks, spoons - everything is out on the table today. I've been a lot more bold than I usually am in many ways. I'm also feeling very blessed, despite all of these decisions. Just the fact that I'm making all of these choices shows me how many totally incredible opportunities and experiences I've had in my life. I have wonderful friends who care about me. I find comfort (see verse 18) in the scriptures (verse 12) and am soothed by wise words in the lyrics of my favorite songs. I am also having a lot of fun with hyper-link. Lots of good stuff. If you haven't heard these songs, do yourself a favor and give them a listen. ("Hope for the Hopeless" should be playing now - see playlist at the bottom of the page.)

I'm staying positive and looking forward with hope. And if that's the best I can do right now, I feel like that's enough.


Also for your viewing pleasure, slightly amusing description of monoclonal antibodies - like the type used in the first treatment option.